Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Our Journey to baby #5

I haven't even looked at my blog since 2011. Life obviously got busy with 4 kids and when I started photography (which Im now taking a break from to have baby #5!). I wanted to share some of our journey, and for those of you that don't know; our journey to baby #5. Now Im not a writer, so don't expect this to be fully poetic or super eloquent!

Unplanned, Unexpected, Fully Intended
To keep this short and simple (who doesn't like short and simple?!), I married my husband and his 3 children, after his wife unexpectedly passed away. We then had 1 child together (after my husband underwent a surgery to make that possible). You'd be safe to say that so far my life was not what I had planned or even expected for myself. Who's is?
Even though I personally went back and forth on having another child (yes another!), that was NOT what my husband wanted. I struggled with the age difference in our 4 children (today they are 17, 12, 10, and 4), and I wanted a sibling closer to Kase's age for him to grow up with. We went back and forth and clearly decided that 4 is enough (not to mention, my poor husband thought he was done having kids, til I came around!). Time for another surgery for husband.
I internally really struggled with this vasectomy. A part of me didn't fully agree. A part of me didn't want him to have it. A part of me was still really sad that, that door was officially closing. I cried for weeks leading up to it. I cried the night before. I cried and prayed for weeks AFTER it. Something within me was unsettled. A few months later, I decided to surrender and trust this was God's new plan for our family. I decided to trust in the decisions my husband made for our family, and trust in God's will for us.
6 months later I was pregnant. What?! Unplanned. Unexpected, Fully Intended by God.  I was so confused and overcome with emotions, that I just cried! My husband laughed and giggled, and couldn't have responded better. I was scared, bewildered, emotional; etc etc etc! Oh and in denial too.
Oh yeah; I said this would be short and simple.
 The beginning was very hard and I had extreme sickness; so glad that's over! I think God wipes our memory of all the bad and hard parts of pregnancy; otherwise people would only have 1 child! ha. I couldn't keep anything down and my OB wanted to bring a nurse to our home, to give me IV fluids. Our insurance actually didn't cover home health, so I just got thru it.  What a terrible feeling to constantly be sick, and feel like you cant even walk around!
Most people don't know that at our first ultrasound, it appeared there were TWO heartbeats. Now that was unplanned, and unexpected for sure! I totally wanted to ignore the whole "maybe 2" part. I was already so emotional and in denial, about being pregnant in the first place! Breathe. Breathe. My OB kept telling me I had extreme sickness because of multiples, but I just wanted to ignore all that! They wanted me to return a few weeks later, for a second ultrasound to get a better look as the babies grew a little more.
The night before my second ultrasound, I was up for hours during the night with the worst pain I've ever felt. I literally felt like I was giving birth and needed to get to the ER, but I couldn't get off the bathroom floor. (I've also had stomach trouble my entire life, so sometimes its difficult to distinguish between bad IBS, and something actually being wrong).
The morning of the ultrasound I began having bleeding. My ultrasound quickly turned from looking for 2, to looking for any. My husband and I made it thru my apt, went on for blood work, and waited for my doctor to call me. I had such extreme sickness, that I was throwing up in the waiting room, and just felt so dizzy and sick overall. It was a terrible feeling.
Medically, not much was explained. I was told I had a "vanishing twin", and had an extra sac that was empty. That one baby stopped growing at some point, and the current baby and pregnancy was fine and would continue healthy and normal. Talk about confusing! Emotionally we had gone thru a whirlwind of being pregnant after a surgery, the thought of having twins, miscarrying 1, but then being so thankful for the continued pregnancy and health of baby "K". I was put on bed rest for 1 week and followed up with my doctor continuously during the first few months of my pregnancy. THANKFULLY, the sickness ended about month 5 (but man, that's a long time!!!) and I've continued a normal and healthy pregnancy.
Today we're ready to meet our sweet baby girl; baby #5. Im almost 37 weeks pregnant, and thankful to have made it to full term! There is so much to have been scared about, to fear, to worry. But you can't deny or argue with God's hand and will.
This is was our journey; our journey to baby #5.
Our journey has definitely been unplanned and unexpected, yet; fully Intended by God!

Telling the kids the baby is a girl!


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Christmas in my home

Love. Love. Love Christmas. I dont claim to be a decorator or anything, but I do love what I have!

Christmas at The Twitty's

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Kase's 1st hair cut

Kase (18 months this week!) finally had his first hair cut this morning! He's had pretty long hair, but I didnt want to cut it yet! I attempted to trim it myself a few months ago, but I made him look like dumb and dumber.

The hair cut was rather traumatic. I tried to hold him at first, but he went nuts! They actually told me to go and hide, and let them just deal with it! They got about half way through (so it seemed to be working!), but asked me to come back and hold him for the end. I took some pictures with my cell phone; sorry for the horrible quality!

He has no idea whats about to happen. haha

This is when they told me to hide, and I tried to sneak a picture

The owner of the Salon went and took this one for me! He looks so miserable! Poor guyThey finished off his hair cut like this!
Checking out the new do in the mirror
Happy to be home and eating goldfish! He crashed shortly after this!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Fall Decor

okay; I dont claim to be an amazing decorator or anything, but here's what I've done in my own home to decorate for fall on my budget! Of course, all thanks to hobby lobby.

Table. I love my lanters and glass cake dome. Perfect for filling up with fall decor; or any decor for that matter.

Fireplace. I like to keep it pretty clean and simple. Not too over the top. It would however, be amazing to get a fall wreath!

love, love, love my apothecary jars. I decorate them for all the holidays. Just add a few sparkly pumpkins
Got this little pumpkin at target for 50% off after Halloween!A few apples in my bell jar and a garland of leaves

Its the little touches that makes the atmosphere really come together. And of course, Pumpkin Marshmellow in my Scentsy Warmers! Love it. Happy fall! Now who's ready for Christmas?! I TOTALLY am!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Christmas Wish Lists!

I saw this idea on Pinterest to make christmas wish lists, where the kids can clip pictures! I thought it was super cute, and attempted my own Christmas Wish List for the kids! Its not super amazing or elaborate, but its cute and I think the kids will really love it! And look, the youngest member already has a picture clipped!

For an additional option, snap a picture of the completed list and email to grandparents!

ps. My husband asked where his list is

Monday, August 15, 2011

Are you ready for the kids to start school?!

I know lots of people started school this week, but my kiddos dont start til next Monday. My husband, who's a teacher, went back yesterday. Am I ready for the school year to start? I've had a husband and FOUR kids at home all summer; do I need to answer that?! No, Im kidding, but I do have some thoughts on the school year starting! Here are my thoughts; just in case you're interested!

* I love the summer. We ventured to Florida, went to Austin, and the kids had some church camps. These are all things we don't really get to do during the school year. We also spent some time in Dallas with my family there, and usually we only go during our Christmas break
*It's super nice to have my husband at home all day; considering we have 4 kids. Its nice to have the help, as well as a break, when I need it!
*I'm really not sure if a job came along, that paid more money, would be worth losing my husband for the summer!
*Chores and cooking pretty much went out the window over the summer.
*I think we're the only ones that still dont give our kids a "summer bedtime", because no matter what, half of them are up by 7! (And thats just a disaster to let them stay up late, knowing they're going to wake early and be cranky all the time!)
*I am definitely ready to get back to menu planning and cooking again. I haven't been to the store, and we have nothing to eat or cook right now!
*I am ready for all of us to get back to a routine and schedule; thus, HOORAY for school!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

I bought a pregnancy test, "just in case"

Well, now that I have your attention!

For the past two weeks or so, I've been feeling nauseous and I even tossed my cookies one night!That is completely abnormal for me, and the only other time i've felt like that, was my previous pregnancy! SOOOOOOOOOO, I thought instead of freaking out, I better just buy a dagum test and get it over with.

For those of you that dont personally know me, I have 4 kids already. Yes thats right. I feel like Im right behind Michelle Dugger; even though, she has considerably more than me. Sorry if this is TMI for the fellas, but I am on birth control, but we all know NOTHING is 100%!
I bought the dumb thing, and attempted to tell Edwin. I started to cry because I was so overwhelmed and scared at the thought of FIVE. (oh by the way,;my youngest is 14 months old, so this would NOT be the time; if there was such a thing as a right time anyways!)

My husband had just mowed the law, than exercised, so he was already hot and sweaty to begin with! He had to sit down, understandably, and quickly said, "please hurry up and take that test!"
We are not pregnant. Im glad Im not pregnant. If this was in 2 years, I might have been sad that it was negative; even though, that would mean FIVE. My husband is FOR SURE DONE. Poor thing thought he was done, than I came into his life and wanted a baby of my own.

Life is full of surprises and uncertainties; as we all know. Sometimes its easy and fun, and other times its heart wrenching and just flat out difficult. Life of a family of 6, is just that. It is certainly not easy all the time; we can't afford to do much (poor kids just want McDonald's sometimes, and I cant tell you the last time we even went! ha). but our days are full of laughter (and screams), snuggles, and lots of family. Would it be so bad to have 5? just sayin...